really vry strange

meri family is not vry small....but my duniyaa is vry limited, i donot know why is it??               All time i have a single picture in my mind abt my duniyaa....i.e me and my babu.  still all time alone.. i donot want to chit chat anyone..its vry allergic for me...widout any reason
ohh God do mercy i m vry cofused ...wat happened wid me plz make me clear. some incident concluded dat i could not love anymore to babu.
i m not able to live widout dim also......i donot have any regret why i loved him....now m feeling like smethng is aparted frm me.. its vry painful...
neither willing to die nor to live.........
Is there anyway in between?????
somtimes i feel he is not bother anywhere about my feelings.
is it really so????????????
arey koi to sambhal lo........god kyu?????????

mai ye maan nhi skti ki usey mujhse pyar nhi
phirr ye dard usey kyu nhi hota??????

jaan hi nikal jaye meri agar kuch acha kiya h aj tak vo to maksad se jee rhe h..
Bhut ziddi hai meri taiyaari tumhe paane ki...
par khwahish hi khtm to taiyaari kya kare?????