Sunday 16 April 2023

My second kid is 9 months old

 Husband is showing bully attitude towards me since 1-2 months, I am fed up with this guy need some break.

He  carrying ac remote with him and left us (we 3)for hours without him and ac. Heyansh is feeling hot and got up many times. ..

I don't like himanshu's behavior.

He always try to create some disturbance in my life.

He is unsupportive and don't want me to understand. 

Let's see kaha tk Jaana paste hai


Friday 16 April 2021

 My friend , My sister is no more...Anshu

Our 20 years friendship got shock once u gone.

 I have been talking to her regularly after dinner during lockdown.(since 1 and half year). 

It was 15 th April she left her last breath. I called her on 12 th april she disconnected three times..but  i continued to dial she picked and said mai kaat  rhi hu kyu ki mai baat nhi kr pa rhi...she was yelling on her husband, mother in law and father in law and all family members that she is not feeling well but no one is showing any concern. All are seeing that shz coughing like anything but no one is caring even to ask.

12 ko test krvaya covid ka...13 ko 2 min baat ki dopahar me mujhse...jb tk report nhi aayi thi...14 ko mujhe btaya pankaj ne ki positive h ...raaat me anshu ne bhi msg kiya ki vo covid+  aur beech vale devar bi....

vo kah rahi thi agar paani lene neeche gayi ...itni khasi aayi ki laga ab saans nhi aayegi... sb dekh rahe the kisi ne poocha tk nhi ..tum thik ho??  sirji bhi dawai fek ke di aur bola khao mt bs padi raho....vo kah rhi thi saari dawai ek din me kha lu aur khadi ho jau kya...jitni khani h utni to kha li...sirji bole duggu ko khana bhi subah maine khilaya tha ...kamre me pade 2 khana bhi nhi khila skti...kya kr rhi ho kamre me pade2...anshu boli mara rahe...sirji replied to marao..

woh kah rhi thi jb jisko jo chahiye sb kiya aj ye kadha..aj breakfast me ye....pr ek baar bhi kisi ne nhi pucha. akele raho to km se km ye to h ki koi h hi nhi puchne vaala ...pr yaha so called family hote hue bhi laga ki koi nhi h apna...

when on 10 april we talked she was saying sirji ko suna ke ki koi dhyan nhi deta...sb hm hi kare.. ek baar kuch kr dete h to ehsaan dikhate h..


Oh God please give sensitivity to all to stand for each other. I am very disturbed please help.


Tuesday 16 February 2021

  

                                                          WHY??

 why the girl are always compelled to do this...to do that....

why always surrounding wants to decide what is good for women?

I can see all girls are are compelled by their partner or relatives, its very heart breaking that we are living in 21st century with lot of differences and frustration given by close one.

I think 33 years old women is mature enough to decide what is good for her and family . There is no harm in discussing anything but to compel anyone is pathetic. 


Friday 17 April 2020

                Lock down Time My Kid is 2yrs and 3 months.



I have been married for 5 years now. He doesn't give any priority to me and my kid. Logically I should not expect anything from him, trying hard to do the same lets see.I Think he had kid (his Brother) and full time pass and reason to live happy (his mother father).So why he will spent any time or anything on us.
He is getting old so sex is also not a big deal. If required badly then wife is ready at all time without any input, so need not to worry. 

my child is not letting me to write anymore...

Tuesday 21 August 2018

Shainu..

Oh god please give me strength for caring my lil one,i will do everything for my baby,i want to make u a good human being and want to fulfill all ur requirements, i just want to be financially well so dat there would not be any difficulty in fulfilling ur things...but unfortunately i donot have support from ur father...he loves u so much...he loved me alot also but his love becomes very suffocating and materialistic smetym..i donot want dis will effect u...i am trying to take all things in my hand dats related to u...now i donot want outing..no shopping..no romantic dinner...what i want is ..to be wid u as much i can.....love u beta...

Tuesday 29 August 2017

1st Blog during pregnancy

This is my 1st blog during pregnancy..

I am eagerly waiting for lil one, my loneliness will be over now.
Its being 4 days babu is not talking to me but its ok, i have to ok as my lil one is dependent on me, as per doctor's i need to be happy internally, i am trying d same by searching happiness here and dere.

God please help me to overcome all difficulties and sadness.


I am feeling very good towards my child, new member will come in family dat will be mine at least for 15 years,  my loneliness will be discontinued..
I am pregnant of 19 weeks 4 days, It will be my champ either its a girl or boy.


Friday 26 August 2016

i have to Accept the reality

  • I got married one & half year back and never imagined that  I would have to deal with a rude and foolish Husband. I am  disappointed, and every day of my married life has been torture.