On 31st May morning 2015

I came downstairs after ready with saaree and makeup.. babu shouted mummy is doing cleaning with wiper and u r bsy with smething else...
He started judging me ....i was vry disappointed...he slept ovrthetr with so relaxed way ,....i was feeling vry alone whole day .....He hadn't given single loving smile whole day....

In d night evrything was nrmal but i was feeling he is not curious about me ...we have met after long tym so there should be some spark... I observed that was missing from his side...

On 3rd May 2015  We gone for movie ....I enjyed but smething was a little bit depressing from lovely juhi side...
I tried to make everything normal....than babu decided to go musical fountain...
we convinced piyu to go there.... I was vry happy and free mood...
I wanted some pics wid babu so i said to him come to close wid me ... he denied again and again....
I saw all are in sme distance wid us ... so i said "come close otherwise it will not be good ...peeche chupte phir rahe ho....maine chintu se shaadi nhi ki..."

He shouted with sme unwanted posture...and not make me click  a single photo with babu....I was broken......by all this there was sme idea to lovely and juhi abt our hursh convrsation.....
He was ignoring me again and again......

Phir ghar aake saari kasar poori ho gyi....papa ka muh latka dekh mai samajh gyi...kuch bola h isne papa ko ,.....

phir mummy shuru ho gyi.... tumhe pata tha vo aisa hi h to shaadi kyu ki...maine to pahle hi bola tha  ki vo aisa h.... vo jaise rakhega rahna padega ab to...kisi ke saamne aise nhi rhte ab lovly juhi saare khaandaan me faila dengi.....jbse tum aayi ho hm dekh rhe h tum log kisi na kisi baat pe lad rhe ho....tumhe samajhna padega...vo apna kuch kaam nhi krta h piyu ya papa krte h to tumhara kya karega.....tum khud hi kr liya karo...uspe chadhne ki koshish na karo...........................aisa sunn ke mujhe rona aa gya ....aur maine ye bola ki mummy aisa nhi hota h ....papa piyu ki baat alag h.....hm uth ke room me chale gye.....lkisi ko mere aasu nhi dikhe... bs yhi dikha ki maine ye bola ki aisa nhi hota.....mai beti jaisi hu na shayad isliye ...........

Mai apne room me ro rhi thi... neeche discussion hua hoga ...to pApa room me aaye light jalai dekha hm lete hain to wapas jaane lage..maine pucha kya hua papa....
to vo bhi vhi sb bolne lage ...badi mushkil se shaadi hui h ab tumhe hi nibhana padega...aisa lag rha tha ki mere uper kisi ka hath nhi h to mai hi ghutti rhu...koi gila shikwa na karu kyuki koi option nhi h mere paas ...ye bhi bola.meri shaadi nhi chal payegi...meri nayi2 shaadi ke liye vo aise bol rhe the jaise mai koi item hu jo vo le aaye pr agar himanshu khush nhi h to vo item bahar fenk denge..mummy ne to bol bhi diya tumhare ghar ke saamne patak aayenge..

jb maine dekha baat itni aage badh chuki h to maine papa se poocha issue kya h mujhe samjhayiye meri galti kahan h mai shi krungi...usko unhone arguement samajh liya..agar mai sach me unki beti hoti to aisa na hota.......

himanshu to aise chilla rha tha ki jaise aj tk kabhi usney mujhe pyar hi nhi kiya mai zabardasti uske ghar aa gyi hu...He was saying "chalo papa, mummy sb chalo yahan se mujhe nhi rhna iske sath nhi rahna, chalo yahan se ...ab chahe kuch ho jaaye mai iske sath nhi rahoonga...."

ohh god please help me i m so weak now....mai toot ke bikhar chuki hu.... bs yhi feel ho rha h ki koi nhi h is duniya me jo bina judge kiye mujhe pyar kre,....judge bhi aise log kr rhe h jo ki biased h....insimple is janam me to pyar nhi h mere nasib me............

struggle.............to be continued.....

I am feeling i write blog whenever i m vry upset and broken...

Finally i got married with my adorable babu on 11th march 2015 without any consent of my family..

I was feeling better after this achievement .....

We have decided Goa for honeymoon destination due to tight budget.

we boarded our flight on 18th march for delhi at 10:40 and reached Delhi at 12:00 .  after completion of lunch at Delhi arrival we boarded flt for Goa at 14:20 and reached Goa and reached Goa at 16:50. We have done lots of fun ovrthere.

"Thankyou My God, Papa and My inlaws family for making this marriage possible."

We had to go LKO again for Animesh Marriage. I reached on 29th may 2015 but the Shadi was on 30th may. I was missing badly to my Babu because he had to come on 30th May 2015.

I counted Hrs again and again.....when he will reach...

On 30th he reached at 2:30 pm I wored saree ...he said "ye kaisi saaree h ..i donot like it"

After dis small conversation he was bsy with his talks wid mummy and papa....Thenafter he gone his friend home Sachin, Animesh and mausaji's house. He know that I hav to go Parlour for makeup still he came back at 07:30 pm.

After long discussion we gone parlour with mummy and piyu at 08:00pm.

there was too rush..babu started shouting do fast.....

It was vry embarrassing for me in front of all that make up is not like jhadhu do jaldi2.....

I was trying to make everything OK....I havnot react on his shout.......

he misbehaved me many times in front of mummy papa & piyu.....

I was expecting this is first marriage that we are attending as a married couple... so we will go in d party holding each others hand....and click much more romantic pics as new couple.

But I was wrong everything is is going so differently .....I was with mummy and papa lovely juhi...

I donot know what lovely juhi are feeling but they are behaving vry unknowingly.....

Jab pati hi rudely behave kr rha tha ....to auron se kya shikayat......

I was waiting for night, I had some hope all will be cool,....but He decided to stay in marriage hall during whole night...He came nxt day in d morning  at 8:30.... I listened his voice and again expected that he will come to me and say smething...but he ignored me....and come back to downstairs...I was in d washroom so that I could be ready to go in the kichen...

I was hurted badly by seeing after long tym we had met...still so much ignorance...

"It hurts the worst when the person that made you feel so special yesterday, makes you feel so unwanted today"